Thursday, September 20, 2012

Summer is over. The chill in the air I feel when I'm sitting on the steps waiting for the bus to come for Chrissy makes me happy and sad.
It's been almost three years since my mom passed away. Fall used to be our favorite season. Since she passed I haven't really cared. I went from decorating the entire house inside and out to hating fall and letting it seep into hatred for Thanksgiving and Christmas. The first year after she passed I didn't even decorate for Christmas. I put up a tree a few days before and called it good.
Last year I was busy and forgot about what day she passed on and when I remembered it had already passed by a few days. The guilt I felt ruined me for months.
I feel better about everything this year. I'm feeling the spark that makes me think I'll finally be able to move on.
I sure do hope so, I've robbed Dane of the excitement of change. To him all change is scary and for the past few weeks his little life has been upside down. He's slowly starting to get the hang of it but it's been a huge effort on everyone involved and we are very grateful for all of the kind people that have helped us out.
So this fall instead of being bitter I'm going to try and make some changes for the good.

A joke from Dane: Why did the naked little person laugh while running through the fields? Because the grass tickled his weenie.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Mess With The Bull

Awhile back the youngest girl and the boy were having a fight. The boy was losing.
So in a stroke of genius (revenge) he went and got the girls bear (favorite stuffed animal) and hanged him. When asked WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!!!! He answered,"When you mess with the bull you get the horns."

Monday, September 10, 2012


I didn't think this day would ever come. At least I didn't think it would come this soon. I knew a day would come when I would have all of my children in public school. I just didn't want it to be now.

Thanks to our sucky economy and now gas topping four bucks a gallon, I can't afford to teach my children at home. In the past four years we've lost 25% of our income, still no health insurance, homeowner taxes up $400.00 more pressure than ever in our marriage...........
Dear Person (who blah blah blahed about change)
You can suck it.......You can keep your change, quit passing it off on me. My family can't take anymore.

In other news...Yup, Little Man is in Kindergarten. What a huge change for him. He's struggling with all of his changes. Academically he is doing amazing, socially, not so much. Last week I got a call from the school and I couldn't hear the nurse's voice all I could hear was my son in the background screaming IWANTMYMOMMYIWANTMYMOMMY!!!! I bet I was out of the driveway before the nurse knew I hung up.
Never get in the way of a mommy who's son needs her..........
All in all I think with a few tweaks he'll be fine in a week or two. It's me who we'll need to cart off to the asylum. Right now he still needs me but I know that soon he'll be getting on that bus without looking back and it's bittersweet I tell ya, bittersweet. 
So now I'm free to join the workforce. Sorta. I have no skills to pay any bills and no gas to get there but I'm gonna give it a go.
My motto for today is When one door closes another opens. I just wish it would hurry up and open because I think it's stuck.